A Moment

A time in eternity
That was taken away from me,
A memory
I have no recollection of,
A pain
I find myself unable to feel
Because of a moment
I did not live.

A void in my life,
A dent in the space of time,
A black hole in my universe
Pulls in my whole existence

A link that was mutilated
From the chain of my path,
Never to reconnect,
Never to be replaced;
And the next series goes on
Like a river changing its course
When a barrier forms in its way.

A scene that was severed
From the director’s film,
An act gone awry
But not refined,
And a sequence follows
Not related to the last,
Except for an instant
Of a scratched black strip in between.

A moment of nothingness,
A moment of not being
Should have been a blessing
But became an eternal hunt for a memory.

So many moments in my years
That I wish they hadn’t been,
So many things in my life
I wish I had not seen.
Even more moments
That I strive to forever forget,
Many moments but one:
The one I didn’t live at all;
Of all the griefs I’ve suffered,
I long to feel that which I didn’t feel at all.

Copyright © 2007 Daisy Tchiftjian